This is it. Come follow me over here if you like.
A new day has come.
delmajesty said: Where ya been, dude? I miss seeing your posts. Cooooooommmmeeee back!
I’ve been. :P
Thanks for thinking about me! I’m making some changes and starting over soon. New blog, new name, new attitude.
This blog has been through a lot but it’s time to lay it to rest. Details soon, stay tuned! :)
Truthfully, I don’t know. Because I feel neither. Loss of identity, loss of self. I feel disconnected.
I hit the gym today, which was good. About 4.5 miles were done. I’m still not feeling 100% with diet and exercise. Still just not feeling it.
I guess I’ll go through the motions until it clicks.
As many of you know, I work 2 jobs. Roughly between 65-70 hours a week. I can’t do it anymore. It’s really too much.
I’m a crossroads. I feel as though I need to quit my part time job. Yet, I need the money.
I want to quit so bad. But, I can’t do this impulsively.
Hey Guys, I’m doing the AIDS Walk this year with a person I met at my training class back in February. I just joined her team.
We need $454.00 to make the team goal of $5000.00. I put my goal to raise $0. If you can donate anything, it would be greatly appreciated. You can do so by going here.
Thanks you guys! :)
My eating is so on point. And, I’m so blessed to be apart of this AMAZING community. So many of you support me and have grown to love me. Through my highs and lows you have been there for me. Tumblr has saved my life in so many ways. And for that, I’m ever so grateful.
Most of all, I’m grateful for you. Thank you. :)
It’s something I want.
My lead teller got married today. She looked absolutely stunning. The wedding was gorgeous.
I want this someday. I just don’t want to wait forever. I don’t want to be the old man living in a shoe.
Congrats Sylvie … So happy for you! :)
It could be worse.
"Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you."
My journey has been uphill for the last year. Well, 14 months. Sitting here trying to figure out what is wrong. I’m trying to have a breakthrough. I’m trying to figure out why I can’t do this. Why my body isn’t responding to things. Why my mind doesn’t give a fuck.
A lot of days I feel like I’m fighting a senseless battle. But, it’s not senseless. it’s my life.
Heading to Boston on 5.11.13 to see if I can’t get cast to The Biggest Loser.
It’s not continuous. Since I heard yesterday, I’ve been crying on and off. At one point, I was on facebook and saw graphic photos.
I didn’t feel grossed out. I felt extremely sad and extremely enraged. How could someone or a group do this to someone? Complete strangers. I don’t know who was behind this. Quite frankly, I don’t care of their affiliation if any. I just want them to be brought to justice. Getting back, before yesterday, he ran so many miles to get to Boston. He put in so much time. He put in so much effort and energy. And now, he will never have legs again. He will never be able to run again - like the rest of us.
I felt my legs, I felt my calves. We take so much in the life for granted. And, I know that I am a big offender of that. It is hard to admit and to see it in black and white. It’s hard to see the visuals of yesterday. The hysteria, the blood on the ground, the screaming people.
You guys, we’ve been given a gift. A privilege. Why do we, and by that I mean I, take it for granted? I can justify things. I can make excuses but in the end, those excuses mean nothing. There is no justification.
I will continue to pray for the families and people affected by this tragedy. I will continue to pray that there is hope for the good in mankind. I will continue to pray that I and by that I mean, WE get better.
We are all walks of life. We are all trying to achieve similar goals in one way or another. Above all else, we are a community and a family.
For that, I thank God I have had the privilege to be apart of this community. I thank God that I am here and I am present.
I love you.